Phobias, Part 2, and Goat Cheese Frosting

I’m not just afraid of rabbits.

I’m also afraid of lighthouse steps.

This is quite problematic when you a) grow up near large bodies of water and b) have a mother who loves lighthouses.

I didn’t used to be afraid of lighthouse steps. As a small child, I was the first kid to bound up the steps and race my brothers all the way to the top, and then all the way back down.

Then I don’t know what happened.

We were with my mom’s family on the Jersey Shore and my mother (as I said, the lighthouse lover) wanted to go to a lighthouse. For some reason, on the climb to the top, I started to get very nervous about being able to see through the steps to the very bottom. I literally had to watch each foot on each step and walk pressed all the way up against the wall.

After I made it to the top, I realized I had to walk down.

I should probably take this time to say that I often fall, especially down steps. I don’t know what it is, but I might be one of the world’s biggest klutzes out there. I’ve had stitches enough on my head and bruises everywhere to prove it.

Therefore, I walked down the only way I knew: sat down on a step, moved my legs to the step below that, and then moved my bottom to the step below. And repeat. For 100 steps.

It might have taken me nearly an hour to make it down to the bottom. With my younger brothers, parents, and numerous other tourists laughing at me all the way down.

And yes, I was in middle school at the time. I thankfully no longer practice this “butt method” of taking steps, but that’s also probably because I have avoided climbing lighthouses like the plague since that incident.

Which is made even more hilarious by the fact that my entire apartment is decorated in a beach house theme, complete with pictures of lighthouses.

Ocean Swells Goat Cheese Frosting

like a whitecap…but more delicious


  • 8 oz fat free cream cheese, softened
  • 4 oz goat cheese, softened
  • 1/4 c powdered sugar
  • 1 tbsp freshly squeezed lemon juice


  1. In the bowl of a stand mixer or in a bowl with a hand mixer, beat cream cheese, goat cheese, powdered sugar, and lemon juice on low until the sugar is incorporated.
  2. Switch stand or hand mixer to high and whip frosting for 2 minutes until light and fluffy
  3. Apply to cupcakes.

This makes enough frosting to frost at least 2 dozen cupcakes (sometimes more, depending on how much or how little frosting you like) and keeps well in the fridge  for up to 3 days- just bring back to room temperature before using.

38 thoughts on “Phobias, Part 2, and Goat Cheese Frosting

  1. The frosting sounds delicious – and as a costume-phobic and lit water phobic person – it’s often met with laughter from others! I think the lighthouse step dislike is understandable 🙂 jen@madeinminch

    1. Costumes I’ve heard of, but lit water is a new one, even for the phobias people tell me

  2. Oh yes, I also have the stairs-that-you-can-see-through phobia. Mine first manifested on a trip to Mammoth Cave. At the very end of the 4 hour cave tour there is a lighthouse or fire-tower style set of steps, metal grating, spiraling up. I was in 5th grade and my mother said she didn’t think she was going to get me out of the cave that day! I remember shutting my eyes and holding on tight to the rail and her hand to get out. I could probably do the cave steps now but I still cannot make it up fire towers or lighthouses.

    Oh and the goat cheese frosting sounds delish!

    1. I had a very similar experience at Mammoth Cave.

      They recently installed lighthouse steps on one of the apartment buildings near my and I literally now have to avoid looking over there since it just makes me nervous!

  3. I have a bird phobia, so I am very sympathetic. I can pretty much avoid birds, as you can bunnies and lighthouses. If you hadn’t had such a miserable experience with the psychiatry resident (I think he was), you might work on this, but overall, it’s probably better just to avoid.

    Best wishes,


    1. I think I’m going to claim that I’m too busy for exposure therapy at this time. 😉

      1. I completely understand!

  4. Isn’t it bizarre how these phobias develop?! As a kid, I would pick up spiders on sticks and chase other kids around to scare them. Now, just remembering that freaks me out!

  5. I think I need to make this recipe. Of course I will use full fat cream cheese….I am a chef….

    1. I work with too many doctors worried about their weight since we don’t have any time to work out…

  6. I think I am like you when it comes to stairs. I can usually get to the top, but he getting down is definitely and issue. Just imaging being on vacation on going up a Mayan pyramid. There are no handles or anything to hold on too. Butt method works very well in this case. 🙂

    1. That falls into the category of things I won’t attempt…I need that railing at least

  7. How about St. Basil’s Cathedral in Moscow? The steps aren’t see-through, they’re just… claustrophobic (::shudders::)

    Goat cheese frosting? Wait till my daughter sees this!

    1. I’m fine with claustrophic stairs- it’s just the ones that are see through or don’t have railings!

  8. I can’t wait to try this frosting! I might put it on top of my pumpkin pie this week!

    1. Ohhh that would be delicious. I might use it on my sweet potato pie 🙂

  9. At least you can stitch yourself up after each fall. It puts a different complexion on Fall and the Dance of Death:)

    1. I might have a stock of suture supplies in my apartment…

  10. Love this recipe. I do something similar with light sour cream, but the goat cheese sounds de-lish!

  11. Will have to try the goat’s cheese frosting but without the sugar – sounds yum!!

    1. I’ve done it that way too and it turns out fine

      1. Excellent! That’s good to know 🙂

  12. I never would have thought of putting goat cheese in frosting–sounds delish! I bet it would be perfect atop my pumpkin-buttermilk pound cake cupcakes. I’ll definitely have to give this one a try!

    1. Oh that would be delicious! It’s a good frosting to use for when you’d normally do a basic cream cheese frosting

  13. Hey,so glad to have you following my challenge over the next few months. Hope you enjoy!

  14. I know what you mean. I’m not scared of see-through stairs but I am scared of going down spiral staircases!

    I think its the same reason that I might fall and slide all the way to the bottom.

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  18. Never thought of using goats cheese, sounds nice.
    As for phobias is scared of peacocks, I can’t even look at a photo of one, just writing this is making me shudder!!!! My family and children find this funny, the horrible lot 😉

  19. Goat cheese frosting sounds amazing! Especially tempered a bit by including cream cheese, too… Yum; I will totally have to give that a try. (I bet it’d be good with a little bit of cocoa powder mixed into it too…)

  20. It’s funny how you often fall, because I’ve literally had about 3 falling incidents in the past couple of weeks, 2 of which have involved steps!

  21. Goat cheese frosting? That sounds amazing. A perfect compliment to those carrot cupcakes.

    Love, B

  22. This frosting sounds amazing!

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